I got asked a question today. A question that might sound pretty simple to some of you. A question that I haven't given much thought to,but when I was asked was very impacted by the answer.
What are you passionate about?
She was referring to life in general. What I want to do with my life. What my purpose is, in this big scary world. I can't figure any of that out and was kind of reaching out for help today. I was asked, what are you passionate about??!!
My response??!! "NOTHING"
Nothing? I shocked myself! Thought about it again and confirmed it,, nothing!
Is it strange that there is nothing that I am passionate about? Is it strange that I have no clue how I want to spend the rest of my life?
I'm referring to something outside the house, besides being a mommy and a wife....
I used to be passionate about my job. Now, I have no interest in it.
I have days that I think certain jobs would be "cool" but within a day or two......POOF!! Interest gone!!
I'm passionate about my children (sometimes in a good way ~sometimes not so much lol),, but the fact is, my kids aren't going to be home forever.. When they start school, I need to get my butt back to work. I need to start making money again.
Even now, as much as I love being home, many days, it just isn't enough! It's not enough to make me feel like I'm doing everything I should be. Everything I could be....
I've been struggling with this lately. I've been feeling like I need something "more". Like there MUST be more to me, to who I am. More than being a wife and a mom.
I feel like I have to find my purpose and do more for myself.. Yet, when I really think about it,, I can't find my passion, there is nothing that I really want to do, nothing that I think will fulfill this need.
Maybe I just don't have time (or energy) to be passionate about anything other than my family right now.
That's sad though isn't it?
Have I completely lost myself during this Motherhood Journey??! It scares me to think that I have, to know that I have.
Next question is, how do I figure it out? How do I dig deep, or reach into myself and find the part of me that isn't mommy and wife and find the person that is passionate about something that I'm going to do for the rest of my life??
I need some help with this one, I know that only I can find it within myself, but am I alone with this? Do all of you still have your "passion"?Do you have something that excites you outside of the house? A job that you just can't wait to get back to? (not because it's getting out of the house, but because you LOVE your job)
Maybe it's something like a class or hobby??
What are you passionate about???