Those of you that know me, know that I'm a HUGE scrooge!! I hate Christmas and as much as I try every year, I just can't get into the spirit..
Everyone tells me to "find" the spirit for the kids, but I've yet to find it.
As Easter approached this year, I felt the scrooge in me resurfacing. It's horrible, I know it's horrible, but there is nothing that I can do to stop it.
I've tried to dig deep, to find the reason that I hate it so much. It's definitely not childhood related, because we always had great holidays and we were more than spoiled. The only thing that I can blame it on, is money!
With two kids and a single income, there isn't a whole lot of extra money floating around to be buying great gifts for everyone. I LOVE giving, but the fun is lost when you're adding the dollars in your head as you reach for something. It kind of takes the fun out of it. The "giving" becomes more of a stress than anything and thats not how it should be.
Anyway, as Easter approached this year, I realized that one of the reasons that I like Easter is because there is no pressure to buy gifts. We still get the yummy food and the family time but we don't end up with all of the debt afterwards.
I love Easter but the one thing I really struggled with this year was the "Easter Bunny". Is it just me or is it a LOT of work to keep up this whole "belief"? I don't know how many times I ALMOST screwed it all up.
At one point I remember sitting on my bed, and thinking to myself "I wonder how screwed up my kids would be if I told them the truth from the beginning? Like, do they really need to be part of this "lie".. What would the harm be in just celebrating holidays and telling them that the gifts are from Mommy and Daddy?" Teeheee.... horrible eh??! The sad part is, I actually had this argument with myself for days, it wasn't just a MOMENT!
While I was making the little jelly bean trail throughout the house, I was really leaning towards scrapping the idea of the Easter bunny and Santa,,, and we should throw the tooth fairy in there too. (Judge me if you want,, I'm just being honest! You'll like me again in a second)
The argument with myself ended the second that I woke up to the sound of Gracie's little voice. "Mommy! Mommy!" and then I opened my eyes.. I saw the most precious thing that I have ever seen in my life and I know for sure that I will NEVER forget the awe and excitement in my little girls eyes.. (I have tears as I type this)
With two hands cupped together and full of jelly beans she said "MOMMY!! THE EASTER BUNNY CAME TO MY HOUSE AND LEFT ME EASTER EGGS, A WHOLE BUNCH OF EASTER EGGS!!! I GUESS I WAS A GOOD GIRL AFTER ALL!".....
At that very moment, I knew that every little effort I put into "lying" and preparing for Easter, was 150% worth it. Never have I seen anything so special, and now I can't wait until Christmas to come so that I can relive the moment that I lived on Sunday morning.
Lylah didn't understand a whole lot, but what she did understand was that every step she took, she found a new jelly bean that could be shoveled into her mouth. That I must say was pretty cute to watch as well. Especially because Gracie thought they should ALL be picked up before trying them.. Lylah was more "quality control", she thought each one should be tried right away...lol
So,, that's it,, no major point to this blog. I just wanted to share my "revelation". I think what I was missing until now, was the fun and excitement that kids bring to these holidays. Until now, they were too young to fully get it.. Now that they do, it's a whole new ball game, and I LOVE it!!!
I hope that you all had a great Easter, and got to make some special memories just like we did!!