I'm hoping that someone can relate to me with this post.
I'm thinking if anyone can, it will be some of you stay at home mommies..
Lately, I've been noticing something about myself. A BIG change. Something that when I sit and think about it, saddens me, but I have no clue how to change it.
I've completely lost all of my social skills since becoming a Stay at Home Mom. It's sad, but it's true.
I've worked with the public my entire working life. I've always been a very social person.
For almost 10 years, I've been an Esthetician. I've seen 15-20 clients a day, booked appointments over the phone. For 4 of those years, I owned my own salon. I dealt with staff,clients and sales reps. You name it, I had no problem dealing with people.
Now, I can't even return and item to a store. In fact, I won't do it. Anxiety takes over, and I just don't do it.
I don't know what I think is going to happen. It's not like I think that someone is going bite me.
I just don't like dealing with people.
I ask myself that as well. Is it that I CAN'T deal with people, or that I just really don't WANT to deal with people?
In many cases, I know that I just don't want to.
Like all of those annoying door to door sales people?? Yeah, I just don't answer the door.
The phone rings, it's a number I don't know? I don't answer it..
But.. then there are the times that I walk into a situation where its new people,(like a birthday party or get together) and I completely shut down. I stay close to my hubby, or someone I know.
I've lost all mingling skills.
I used to be the type of person that would start conversations with people,
now I sit and wait until someone talks to me. Sometimes I even sit and hope that no one will!!!
Usually, while I wait, I sit and think about how much more I'd like to be at home. Home in my comfy little house where I don't have to find something to talk about or worry about whether I'm saying the right thing.
Let's face it. The only things I have to talk about are my girls, and I'm sure people really don't want to sit and talk about my kids all night..
To a lot of people, I probably look like a super *itch, but I'm not. No really I'm not....
Honestly, kids just stole all of my social skills and I have no clue how to talk to you or start a conversation..
Once the conversation has started, I'm fine. It's just getting me started..
It's not like I have social anxiety or anything. I have no problem going out. I actually look forward to it. I've just lost my outgoing personality. I've lost the ability to feel comfortable while meeting new people, or being thrown into new situations. I've lost my want for small talk and mingling..
That being said, I could probably walk into a room full of 3 year olds and light up the room!! I'd have no issues there!!
Am I alone here? Does anyone battle with this? Who has some ideas of what I can do to get my social skills back?!